WHATS BROWN;

aly
annalim
anastasia
celeste
chow
chris
claud
connie
deborahlee
dhini
eunice
grace
guan
hazimah
humairah
jamie bf
jayne
jo
LESSIES
lynnette
mabel
mary
pat
rachel
sam chuii
sam low
sarah
sherry
stacey
tyanne
yanling
yoww

REMNANTS;

PUSH IT.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

i feel outta place right now.
nothing is leading me to anywhere.
im not standing on any path
which makes me sure about my aim.
whatever aim.
argh.
hell to the aim.

yeah.feels like everyone is keeping everythg frm me.
but hey.
arent i keeping it too?

nobody wants to answer any of my qns.
but hell i dont need the answrs.
i dont want em in fact.
just dont keep in a corner and come back with bad news
yeah?

but do so,if u have to.

hm.maybe i gotta get used to this life
like as though im living it without you.
yeah.its all suppose to be like this.
right?
okay.ill try copin.
leave me to do that.
cus id probly not be able to if you keep reminding me.
thanks.im really trying.

so ive got a testimony to make
on the 11th.
but im so unprepared.
balls.

this cant be happening right.
i thot id be able to do this well.
im just in another nightmare right?
well.not exactly a nightmare.
a dream?cus when im asleep,
all the stuff i dream about are bad.
since thgs changed.
hell.dont start.

so anws.
dream dream dream.
whatever.
i sleep,and i still feel im awake
cus the dreams seem so real.
ugh.

my nightmares.
rarely get em..
cus my nightmares arent exactly bad stories.
they're just big huge ball like thgs
that seem like they're squashing me.
until it feels so hard to breathe.
like you know,complication.
when ur messy mind thgs of so many
different thgs
that seem to be the same.
but just contradicts each other.
for some funnyass reason.
wish i cud have nightmares instead.

ugh.i think too much.
damn the mensus.

i waited from 5:05 PM

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